Sunday, February 28, 2010

My first Bottle

So Im with family in Phoenix. Baby sitting a 10 month old and a 9 year old while watching the Hangover. Win.

I just made my first bottle! 8 ounces and 4 scoops microwaved for 30 seconds. Ha. I was really mad about having to come up here but its not that bad. Im actually having a little fun. The 9 year old is a little bitch but the 10 month old is the best little baby ever!

This morning my sisters fiance and I went on the great bagel hunt. The Einsteins Bagels by their house had a broken oven so there didnt have many bagels. We spent the next hour driving around looking for a place to get bagels. We ended up in the bakery department of Safeway. Safeway actually has really good bagels!

This babysitting gig is pretty easy. My 9 year old niece pretty much takes care of the baby while I sit bag and write up my new blog posts. Im really craving chocolate right now. I also need to take a shower so my family better get home soon. They are out buying plants. The reason for us coming up to Phoenix was so we can landscape my sisters yard. Its looking really good!

I spent about 20 minutes yesterday running up and down the sidewalk with the baby in her stroller. She loved it! I got a good workout too.

Remember: what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas. Except for Herpes. That shit will come back to you.

Peace.Love.And.HarryPotter

{as.sane.as.me}

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

i.had.an.overwhelming.urge.to.flip.you.off

My step dad just walked by my window and i really did have on overwhelming urge to flip him off. Interesting. I get these urges a lot. Not because Im angry or anything, just an urge. Usually they are to punch or kick people though. They can be fun sometimes! Haha.

Anyways, today was...average. Im really starting to resent couples. I have mixed feeling about being around then though. I like hanging around couples because sometimes they are really cute and I get a happy, fuzzy feeling watching them but other times I want to throw things at them and scream. Im a very jealous person by nature and it bothers me.

Jealousy: (n) jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.

I hate always being jealous of other people. Its pretty much a constant feeling, it doesnt go away. There was a new girl in my 2nd period today. I wanted to through my journal at her head because every guy in the room was drooling over her. Then at lunch I got jealous because someone got back with there girlfriend even though he had just told me he liked me. I wasnt jealous of her because she had him. I was jealous of her because she had someone.

And that is all...

Peace(love?)&HarryPotter

{as.sane.as.me}

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

finding the Answers

Today, I made a revelation. This revelation came to me in the bathroom (seriously it did). Lets see if I can remember it!

Today in geometry everyone was picking on each other. We weren't trying to be mean, just having fun. I made fun of Perry's eyebrows. I do that when Im looking for a low-blow because Perry once told me that a girl rejected him because his eyebrows were too bushy (he has abnormally bushy eyebrows!). So when I told Perry to move because his eyebrows were blocking my view he decided to draw an offensive picture of me on the board making fun of my hair and such. It was complete with a witch nose (that was just a coincidence, he doesnt know Im Wiccan)!

As recently as a year ago that would have bothered me. Really upset me. But not anymore. I have finally come to terms with myself enough to not let other people bring me down so easily! The way I see it is if people like me then thats great! If not they can just suck it. Im happy with this revelation.

On another note, Morgan isnt as mad at me anymore! She left for N.A.U. after school today so I wont be seeing her for months but its ok now. She called me a whore:) I know you probably think thats strange but we call each other whores as a term of endearment.

The only thing that makes me feel a little down is the fact that my friends keep leaving me...I know its not really a big deal but I hate having friends so far away! Zoey, my absolute best friend, lives all the way in Washington and I recently found out she isnt moving back here for high school. Now Morgans at N.A.U. and then shes going to be leaving for even longer to travel around...Europe, I think, to play with her jazz band.

Well this wasnt the most interesting post ever but I needed to get some things out of my head. Huge thanks to anyone who reads this...Amelia:)

PeaceLove&HarryPotter

{as.sane.as.me}

Monday, February 22, 2010

Hello, Folks

Well...I screwed up. I admit it and Im sorry. I keep saying that. "Im sorry", that phrase is so over used it doesnt have much meaning anymore. But still I say it.

As you know I went and hung out with Nick. Bad, bad, bad decision. Telling Morgan was hard. Hearing her response was harder. She was so upset and hurt and angry and betrayed! All because of me. Im not proud of myself right now...She wouldnt even look at me all day. I even gave her a tampon! (Long story, inside joke. Maybe Ill tell you guys someday.) Well Im considering doing a spell for forgiveness. I really dont want her to leave and still be mad at me! Well Ive talked about this so much today I just need a break. Lets move on to a better subject.

If rain is a good sign maybe she will forgive me. Its raining today. Yes! I love the rain. I love the clouds. I love the dark air.

Most people find this weather gloomy and depressing but to me, its happy. The clouds give me a feeling of security that I just cant get from the blue skies and sun. The rain drops falling down does remind me of tears but they also remind me of life. "Crying doesnt indicate weakness, ever since birth its been a sign of life." I hope I quoted that correctly. Im too lazy to look it up. Well anyways, rain is the essential giver of life in the world. (btw Morgan just text me and it wasnt to tell me how upset she is(: yay). Im a Libra, which is an air sign, but I really think Im more of a water sign person. Ever since I was little I would spend all day long in the pool or playing in the mud or running in the rain. Water is my thing.

So I feel as if Im rambling on...I will stop now! Thanks if you read all this. Probably just Amelia or Jennifer (hi guys!) Ha. Well Im off now

peace,love,and harry potter

{as.sane.as.me}

Sunday, February 21, 2010

i.felt.as.if.i.would.burst.into.flames

Well, first order of business! Morgan, don't be mad when I tell you all of this tomorrow. I swear we are just friends and that's all we ever will be.

Second order of business! Amelia, if you read this please don't tell Morgan. I want to tell her myself because I'm not entirely sure how she will react...

Now, here's the story.

I am a bad person. My friend Morgan is going through a rather bad break-up with her boyfriend, Nick, of almost 9 months. I'm also friends with Nick. We text a lot, he's older than me, and goes to a different school. Him and Morgan go to the same church. Saturday night Nick asked me if I wanted to go church with him and hang out because my other friend TJ goes their and they always hang out before the service.

Let's insert some random info here: If you have read my bio or know me personally then you know I'm Wiccan. I hate churches! They scare me and I don't really like Christian views (no offense if you are Christian, it's just my opinion).

So with that information in your head lets continue the story.

I decided to go. I do not know why exactly...I think it's because I wanted to meet Nick (we hadn't actually met until then, just texts). The one problem with this is...Morgan was out of town. I'm not really sure if she would have wanted me to go hang out with her ex boyfriend without her there. I would never, EVER be anything other than friends with Nick because of his history with Morgan so she really has nothing to worry about but I know that she's jealous he talks to me when he won't even return her text messages...

So I just needed to get that off my chest! I'm going to tell her at school tomorrow. Hopefully she's ok with it.

Peace, love, and Harry Potter,
{as.sane.as.me}


p.s. that was the most BORING church service I have ever sat through!!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Lets Go Tick Off The Morality Police

Hello,
So for this first blog post Im going to talk about random things. I was sick yesterday but Im feeling better today. I get pretty dizzy when I get up though. Ive stopped acheing though!

So Austin is the new kid at school. I find him attractive and he likes Harry Potter. Im a huge HP nerd! He likes/liked Carly but now is going out with Victoria. I really like Austin. He knows I like him! Victoria really doesn't like me...when she was with Riley (one of my random guy friends) she thought i was going to steal him from her. Ha. Like thats ever going to happen!! Well to sum it up: Im pretty bummed out because Austin has a girlfriend.

Im living vicariously through my non-single friends. (Amelia, that pretty much means you!)

PeaceLove&HarryPotter,

{as.sane.as.me}